Restoration

Dimly I realise that something is happening
There is a painful scrape
Oh, the pain!
Oh, the relief.
A layer of heavy toxin lifts of me

I always knew this wasn’t who I am
My true self buried under the layers that others applied to me
You should act like this
You should look like this
You should love like this
You should…

Unable to breathe, stifled, suppressed
Another scrape
I want to run off the table
My exposed ugliness is lying naked for all to see
But I know there is more to me
Underneath it all is something real
Someone worth fighting for

This process isn’t glamorous
Some days I lie in self pity when I see the state I’m in.
I miss the days when a nice coat of paint could hide it all
But I won’t give up on me
Hope does not despair

One day my pure, beautiful self will be fully revealed.

My original intent.
Authentic and real
Restored